Last two years of my college life.

Aneesa S Ruksana
3 min readDec 14, 2020

Everyone has a big dream about college life. Even I had one. The First 2 years of my college life resembles a large pizza🍕 with extra cheese🧀. Each day served with different toppings and taste. At the end of the day, it was like “I’ve never met a pizza like you before”😋 . The feel was yum and lovely. Days were going good and as if the first part of a movie. Even we experience a change in seasons why not in friends?

From love to hate

From friend to enemy

From honest to dishonest

From best to worst

Yes, everything and everyone got shattered. A group containing 4 got shattered to 1:3. As if Cinderella with her stepmother and sisters. I was neglected by everyone under those circumstances. Day by day, things have gone from bad to worse. Everything became more dreadful and difficult to handle. There were no friends, no aim, no joy, no energy. I lost myself completely in this battle. It was really hard to let go of things. Life tasted like sugarless vegan brownies 🍰

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Although, I was calm and I was waiting for a chance to make things clear at least once. But every time I failed. Fighting is obvious stuff between friends but getting back together is a tedious job as boiling a dinosaur egg🥚. In no doubt, there will be a troop who will be active to “pour fuel on the fire”. Things were upside down. The one who thought you as a friend started to treat you as an enduring foe. I thought things will change some or the other day. Nothing changed except the days. The thing is that people don’t find time to say it on your face instead they’ll post it on Instagram🙄

It’s completely left to us whether to put a comma or to put a full stop.

I clearly understood that one should never explain to someone who is never ready to listen to our words and at the same time, it is hard to make some understand who deliberately obtuse your point of view. Of course “Haters will prolong to hate and potatoes prolong to potate”. In life, you’ll get a situation where you need to stand for yourself. You’ll have only you. Start facing problems with a warm smile. Believe me, you’ll get stronger day by day mentally. Unknowingly all your problems will shape you in a good way. Apart from these muddles, I felt lucky because I could have my pizza🍕fully without sharing it with anyone else Lol! 😂

I started to live my life as happy as I can. Even Mr. Bean taught us to enjoy our own company without expecting someone else to be with us. Everyday taught me new lessons. I started to concentrate on my studies. All days enriched more positivity. All those past issues molded me in a good way. All those stress made me successful today. I̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶n̶o̶t̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶d̶u̶m̶b̶ ̶p̶e̶r̶s̶o̶n̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶m̶o̶r̶e̶. I’ve canceled all my subscriptions to dilemma’s and I started subscribing to pizza🍕

“All your bitter past will make you the best version of you” — ARS

Believe in yourself. You can and you will face it. Sometimes thinking about your past is good because you will come to know how far you have come.

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Aneesa S Ruksana

Content Writer 💙🖋️ Lets grow better together